Tuesday, June 23, 2009

So long, farewell, adieu to you and you!

I'm moving to tumblr. I don't know how to explain it, I just like it better? Well cya.

general-grievous.tumblr.com

*Sept 13, 2010: Looking back, I realize I was quite the drama queen. And I was totally lame. I mean, lyric titles and stuff. I guess it led me to where I am now, but damn. I wish I could've skipped that embarrassing stage.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Hey, it's your special day, old man.


Just wanted to give a shout out to my pops.
Happy father's day, dad. I love you.
Isn't he just too cool?

Monday, June 15, 2009

Our time is almost here.

Summer's here and to be honest, I'm not feeling it. Friggg, I think it's the thought of summer school. Ugh, I cannot believe I am taking summer school. Anyway. I had some random thoughts in my head and I just needed to put them down somewhere.

I do not have the initiative to just go and frickin lose my flub. Jeebus, I don't wanna just run around by myself, I would look so retarded, because I don't look like a runner. But then again, being flabby doesn't make me one of the cool kids either. I'm not liking this situation.

My birthday is coming up in early July and it makes me wonder if I'm going to have more freedom. If you know me, you know my parents. They don't let me go places much, because I'm young and I'm a girl. Mother efffffff, not fair. Besides, I remember how to SING (Miss Congeniality reference, ou ye). But honestly, djsfgjdjhfsg. I just hope it's going to be different.

I want to have a new style and look. I love the vintage stuff, but cmon, from plain hoodies with graphic tee's and a pair of DC's to cute vintagey dresses and cardigans? A bit too drastic, don't you think? djkhgosfdi I don't like this either.

Well I should sleep, I can feel the bags under my eyes growing.

Bye, xox

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

The word is out, this town can hardly breathe

When air is filled with dust & dying dreams.

I lied. I always say I don't know who I am, that I don't know what kind of person I am. But I lied. I know who I am. I am quite the judge of character. I know you better than you think. It's not that you're predictable, don't worry. You're all special. When I say I don't know who I am, just know that I do. Maybe not entirely, but for the most part, yes. I know I'm the kind of person who hates being pushed around by the ones close to me, but I put up with it anyway because I know it helps you succeed or makes you happy. I'm not the type to tell you that what you're doing or saying is hurting me. I'd much rather have you clueless about my bothers. But I'm also the kind of person who's hurt that you don't notice what you do to me. I'm the kind of person who over thinks things, but it ends up helping me eventually. I wait for people to change. I don't like how many times I've used the word "I" in this post. One more thing, I'm the person who wants feels like they have so much to give, but is too scared to try. I think that's enough.

Later, xox

Currently listening to: This City Is Contagious by The Cab

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Jenny was a poor girl

Living in a rich world

Beginning my first all-nighter since grade 4. Seriously. Tomorrow is the last day to hand in work and do tests, so I kind of really need this. Why is it that only on the last possible night, my parents decide to forget I'm still awake. I'm thankful for it, but I wish it would've happened before. Jeebus. So this is an hour after I started this post. My mom came down to check email or something, so now she may or may not be waiting for me to go upstairs. Frig. I should go.

Sweet dreams, xox

Currently listening to: We Cry by The Script
Namedrop of the day: Marshall Threads website here

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

If the clouds don't clear, then we'll rise above it

Heaven's gate is so near, come walk with me through.


Sometimes I wonder why I still go on this. Actually posting, I mean. The whole 'following' system makes it easy to stay updated on other people's blogs. Back to my point, who would honestly read some chick's ramblings or boring replays of my life? Other than my friends, I don't know. Like this one. Why am I typing this? Am I hoping someone I don't know is reading this? Perhaps. It used to be somewhere to vent and let pent up feelings out, but lately there hasn't been much to get all stressed out about. I've kind of half-given up on this year, just hoping to tie up loose ends and have a fresh start next year with much less mistakes. Like everything else I do, it takes me too long to adjust to change. It makes me feel clingy, which is a pet peeve I sometimes have. And no one wants to be a hypocrite, right? Didn't think so.

There are only two more days left to hand in work and do test and such, and I'm surprisingly still not feeling that whole pinch all students are supposed to feel. I am by no means ahead, on the contrary, I'm rather behind, but the actual panic still hasn't set in. My mind has this way of mollifying myself before I can feel the stress. It does this by thinking, "Hmm, 3 units in 2 days, easy peasy." And then it doesn't happen. Even then, I find some other reason why it's not terrible. Is this optimism or plain stupidity? Do I want to know? Perhaps.

It's 9:44pm and I have about 2 days to do a project. Feeling a slight tug at my heart, but nothing major yet. Maybe there's something wrong with me. Oh well.

Later, xox

Currently listening to: Before The Worst by The Script
Quote of the day: "There is no one alive who is you-er than you." - Dr Seuss

Monday, June 1, 2009

You wear your heart on your sleeve

I threw mine to the sky.


This post is going to be dedicated solely to the amazing band that is The Cab. I don't know if you've heard their stuff, but you should and they sound just amazing. God, I can't believe it and don't know how to say it other than "Ian left the band". For all you already-fans who might have stumbled across my blog, I feel your pain. Okay well it's been an hour since I started typing this post, so I'm going to have to cut it short.


Basically, I'm really sad to see Ian go, but I hope he excels in whatever he chooses to pursue next. Though I wish I could have met him at a show and could have heard more music with The Cab from him, I'm glad he didn't sell out. He didn't particularly like playing the genre of music The Cab was, and he stayed true to himself. The Cab isn't left for dead though, Singer said their friend Bryan Dawson is going to play with them. I am definitely sad right now, but in the end, I know I'll be happy. For Ian, The Cab, and myself. This change marks the beginning of more change, and with The Cab, it's bound to be great.

Peace, xox

Currently listening to: Bounce by The Cab

I got the information from Singer's blog first, then checked Cash's and he posted about it, too.

Monday, May 25, 2009

Oh how scared the strong are

Their pride and ignorance being a mere façade.

I'm scared. I just can't seem to meet anyone's expectations. I hear it over and over again, "Don't listen to other people, just be your best." Thank you for trying to help, really. But in all honesty, who lives like that. Everyone is always concerned with how others think of them, whether it's consciously or not. And the few people who do seem to live without that care, how do they do it? I've tried not giving a thought to what other people think, but it's impossible. My standards are the standards other people set for me. I have that fear of failure. I can't remember what it's called, let me Google it, haha. Hmm, well I'm far too lazy to double-check, but the first thing I got was "atychiphobia". Good enough. Ugh, it's just so.. pesky.

It's almost summer, time to be happy. Mr Guy Ripley put up the clarinet and harpsichord arrangement for About A Girl by The Academy Is... and it's actually really good. It's soothing, but not too boring? I like it. Listen to it at http://drop.io/guyripley. I should go, I've been lacking sleep so much lately, it's terrible. Oh, and Twitter is proving to be more addicting than I thought. Yes, I gave in to this trend. I just wonder how long it'll take to wear off.

Peacee, xox

Currently listening to: About A Girl (Clarinet & Harpsichord Version) by The Academy Is.../Guy Ripley
Namedrop of the day: Ryland Blackinton of Cobra Starship :)

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Venin venant tordre ma bouche

Il est distillé dans mon souffle.

That translates into:
Venom which breaks my mouth, it's now distilled in my breath.
(Or something like that, haha)

Ah, summer is in the air. Or it is the air. It's fine, whichever way you see it. We had the Wolverine Run today, a 20 years and going tradition I would have rather not taken part in. I suppose it was alright though, I feel I did better this time than before. Congrats to Debbie, who came in first place, which was no surprise to anyone at all :) Oh, what place did I come in? I'd much rather not speak of it. Plus, I didn't check. Let's just say it's probably very near to the end. But who cares. It's not like I was planning to be an athlete anyway. Hmm, I suppose it was just like the typical run we've been having during practises, but this time, there were people watching. Not to mention jerks throwing water, soda, and grass at us. Do they not have anything better to do with their time? Like work? From their faces, I know they aren't the students who are ahead with their courses. I sound like such a stiff, when the truth is, I'm not that much ahead of them. I should work now.

I think I'll leave it at, "I'm starting to miss winter a little."

Peacee, xox

Currently listening to: J'échoue by Alexandre Désilets
Namedrop of the day: Spongebob Squarepants, the best fry cook in all of Bikini Bottom

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Hope dangles on a string

Like slow spinning redemption.

It's the weekend and as usual, I am forced to stay home. I suppose it's not all too bad, I suppose I just have a flair for the dramatic. See what I did there? Haha, anyway, there used to be three people sleeping in my room: myself, my sister, and my younger brudduh. Yesterday, my little bro moved out and into my older brother's room, so now my sister and I have a desk and loads more space. Because you all really needed to know that, right? I dunno. I just wanted something to talk about. I don't really feel like rambling on about pointless things, so I suppose I'll leave it at an early Happy Victoria Day. I'm going to soak up some sun or learn a new song now.

Peacee, xox

Currently listening to: Vindicated by Dashboard Confessional
Namedrop of the day: Dr. Phil, just 'cause.

Saturday, May 16, 2009

There's always something in your way

What can you say? You're gonna have a good day.

There are several things I want to talk about. I guess I'll start with the ones that happened first.
The season finales of Grey's Anatomy and Ghost Whisperer. Oh my gosh. Talk about major cliff hangers. Both finales ended with you wanting more. Will Izzy and George die? Were they meeting each other in the afterworld elevator? I was hanging on to the edge of my seat and then it was over. Just wow. I could only catch half of it, because I was at a school spring concert (we were pretty good, except for the drums in one song *ahem Julian ahem*). Now, for Ghost Whisperer.. I will make it short and sweet, for if I don't... I will probably fill this whole page. But be warned, there will most definitely be spoilers.
1. Zoe dies :(
2. You can see Eli's undies when Carl the Watcher visits him. LOOOOOL.
3. Melinda's mother hires her this obsurd wedding planner.
4. Melinda's baby is going to be a BOY!
5. He will be able to do even more than Melinda can, and that obv worries her.
6. Jim/Sam and Melinda ditch the big wedding and have a renewal instead, and they have it on the street they first met. Alright, let's have it. *universal Awwww*

I suppose that's long enough. Next topic, the Meyers Briggs personality test (Meyers Briggs Type Indicator, or MBTI). My friend, Alexandra, was telling me about it and I'd already heard of it. Most of the personality tests I've seen are those predictable 10 question quizzes on Facebook, haha. The results I got were pretty accurate. I was so indecisive in answering though. I think 98% of my answers were the exact middle of Very Inaccurate to Very Accurate. That's my whole life, indecision. Well, here are the results.

I am type: INFJ - "Author". Strong drive and enjoyment to help others. Complex personality. 1.5% of total population. Talk about minority.

Possible Career Paths for the INFJ:
Clergy / Religious Work
Teachers
Medical Doctors / Dentists
Alternative Health Care Practitioners, i.e. Chiropractor, Reflexologist
Psychologists
Psychiatrists
Counselors and Social Workers
Musicians and Artists
Photographers
Child Care / Early Childhood Development

Traits:
Intuitively understands people and situations
Idealistic
Highly principled
Complex and deep
Natural leaders - I don't think so.
Sensitive and compassionate towards people
Service-oriented
Future-oriented
Value deep, authentic relationships
Reserved about expressing their true selves
Dislike dealing with details unless they enhance or promote their vision
Constantly seeking meaning and purpose in everything
Creative and visionary
Intense and tightly-wound
Can work logically and rationally - use their intuition to understand the goal and work backwards towards it


Take the test yourself.

It seems really accurate, or is it that I'm just so typical and predictable? Who knows. These 'tests' are entertaining.

I just remembered I have one more thing to talk about. Zebrahead! I just stumbled across their mash-up music videos on Youtube, and they are really good. I think their Paramore one is my favourite. Go listen to them :)

Currently listening to: Good Day by The Click Five
Namedrop of the day: Carl Jung,whose principles are the base of the Meyers Briggs Type Indicator

Monday, May 11, 2009

Sex sells

And your sex cells make all the lost boys drool.

Today was... interesting. The one day I remember about bringing extra socks for phys ed is the day I leave them on my bed. Hm. So all day, my socks were frickin' muddy and gross :( Ahh, I almost got distracted for too long again. Well nosiree! Not this time! It is currently 9:03pm and I have about an hour before my father kicks me off the computer. Anyway. Running through the forest during period one after a few nights of rain meant extra muddy muddles (mud puddles) and bye bye white socks. Yep, it was just lovely. Ah, so it's now 9:21.. I am terrible with focus. Good thing I saw the new episode of CSI Miami on the Atlantic channel early :D

Anyway, other than running, we spent periods 4 and 5 in the cafetorium learning about sex ed. Hence the title of this post. Plus I just love The Maine, haha. To be honest, I didn't learn much. Except about the STD/STI e-cards. Apparently, if you find out you have an STd/STI, you have to tell your lovers of the past 6 months. And if you find it difficult to tell them over the phone or in person, send them an e-card. One goes like this, "Roses are red, violets are blue, I gave you syphilis when we screwed at the zoo," Yeah. That really makes it easier. But the other things were just about how contraceptives don't always work and how it's tough to have a teenage pregnancy and yeah.

--- OH SHEET only 15 possible minutes left. Frig, I suck at focusing.

What else, okay Dorothy totally got me into this whole Dresden Codak thing. It's some kind of comic, but it's not just sitcoms, they're educated and make you think. OKAY IT IS NOW 10 O'CLOCK. I must flee, but do please read those comics. There's also the author's Livejournal to explain some things. Enjoy, for I must be off.

Toodles, xox

Currently listening to: The Way We Talk by The Maine
Namedrop of the day: Plato, or
Πλάτων in Greek

Friday, May 8, 2009

Chisel my heart out of stone,

I give in every time.

It feels like I haven't been on this in a while, though it's really only been a couple of days, haha. So what do you think of the new layout? I think spring has been cut short, it's gone almost directly from winter to summer, hasn't it? Anyway, I suppose much hasn't happened this week, other than art show. So I suppose I'll talk about that.

Integrated technology (basically woodshop) is part of the art show, too, so it needs security to make sure people don't steal stuff, right? And students need 5-6 hours for a quest unit, and security counts. Anyway, for an hour each day after school, I stayed in the construction lab until 4. Now, I don't really like trash talking people or saying stuff about them behind their backs, but this one chick really was something. She's self-centered, a perfectionist in that she has to win, and she acts in a way that reminds you of a spoiled 7 year old. Oh distractions, I don't feel like typing anymore, seeing as how Criminal Minds starts in about 13 minutes. Let's just say this girl got on my nerves and I couldn't wait to leave.

On a lighter note, I think a bunch of friendships that have somewhat broken loose are starting to be healed again. Sure, it'll take time, but I'm willing if they are. Even school things are seeming brighter. I guess I just needed to regain my look-at-the-bright-side attitude and just smile. It helps so much, even if you feel like a piece of pig poop. :)

Girl time, awhh yeah! Did anyone watch Spectacular? Oh my gosh, Nolan Gerard Funk was hott! Go Canada ;) And also, Colleen from The Young & The Restless was there, and Lola from Zoey 101, and that army chick from Cadet Kelly. Yep. It was a nice story, a bit typical, but most movies are. Maybe that's why we love them.

I'm going to stop myself there because Ghost Whisperer is starting right about now.

Peace! xox

Currently listening to: My Heroine by Silverstein
Namedrop of the day: Jennifer Love Hewitt

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

You are my fire,

My one desire.

Today was good. Today was great. Today was lovely. Today was uplifting.
Though I don't believe I acheived as much as I could have, I still feel quite accomplished. Maybe it was the lack of hallwalking or doing a test first thing in the morning. The test was so easy, by the way. I don't understand how people failed it. Ugh I sound vain. During period 2, I went to math. I never realized how simple y-formulas could be. Come to think of it, I'm beginning to like math again.. I'm feeling brown and nerdy! (That was an attempt to parody that Riding Dirty song, if you didn't notice, ahah). Period 3, I ran with Larissa and Joan Reed-Lutz (Ha! You owe me another one) for phys ed. I actually did a lap without breaking my pace! The trick is to breathe through your nose ahah. I think I really have improved, but alas, my flab remains. Hmm, then we had lunch outside again, it was b-e-a-utiful! (Jim Carrey reference, whaat?). The ice cream truck (one source of flab) didn't come, so I couldn't get a slushie for my throat. It still feels like something is festering in it.

Then along comes periods 4 and currently 5. I'm in the computer lab, it's nice here. I have been here only once before, struggling with TLE's. Not that they were hard, I just didn't know how they worked. Well now I do. I'm typing up my "short" story and hoping it fits in 3 pages. If anything, I think I'll just make the spacing a tad smaller. :)

And of course, dem boy tiingsz. Oh jeez, why do people type or talk like that? Doesn't it get on your nerves sometimes? Anway, I saw him a couple of times today. I was happily surprised because I thought he was going on the tech trip. If I knew he wasn't, I would have gone upstairs before TA and got another look at him ;) Oh my God. I sound so girly, it's terrible. **HOLY MOTHER OF PEARL, I accidentally pressed that pesky Back button on the mouse, and thought I lost everything, haha** Anyway, I saw him a couple of times again during the day in the halls. Probably thinking, "Wow, whattaniner,"

Anyway, time to get back to work! I have to do security for the tech part of the art show from 3-4 and then I have to pick up the DVD I put on hold from the library (they never called to say it was available!!)

Latesss, xox

Currently listening to: I Want It That Way by The Backstreet Boys
Namedrop of the day: Jim Carrey

Monday, May 4, 2009

So you're standing on a ledge,

It looks like you might fall.

I've been thinking a lot lately, though it surely hasn't been showing, but I've come to really see things in a new light. As always, I have put things to the last possible moment, like this post, for instance. Again, my dad needs it soon. Continuing on the topic of my thinking, I've just really and truly understood that life really is too short. I know that is one of the most used phrases ever, but the guest speaker at school today made me realize it for real. Today marks the beginning of Stop The Stigma Week, stigma being the barrier stopping people from getting help. My heart just poured out to the speaker, who has lost both her father and one of her brothers to suicide. She herself has attempted it when she was younger, and yet she has the strength to speak to a cafetorium full of strangers and teenagers about her ordeals. I don't know what else to say about it really, just how I found it amazing. I know I've been whining and complaining about my life, but when I really think about it, it's pretty darn great. Sure, there are a few down points, but without them, how could I ever truly appreciate the good moments?

To see light, darkness must be present. To experience true happiness, you have to know what sadness feels like, too. I like to think of it by using a candle example. If you were to light a candle and place it somewhere extremely bright, or hold it up against the sun and look at it, could you really see it's potential? No. The only way to really see how beautiful its flame is, is by seeing that flame in a pitch black room. I guess I've been rambling. Plus, my dad has 'asked' to use the computer now, except in that tone which makes it more of a statement than question. I really wish I had more time to continue this. That's procrastination for you. Like they say, keep your friends close, and your enemies closer.

Peacee, xox

Currently listening to: If I Am by Nine Days
Namedrop of the day: Franklin the turtle

Sunday, May 3, 2009

Boys will be boys

Hiding in estrogen and wearing aubergine dreams.

Okay so I didn't post anything yesterday because, well, nothing interesting happened yesterday. I woke up at 1pm, so there goes half the day. I watched a couple of cartoons with my little brudduh. I honestly cannot remember what I did for the rest of the day. Certainly not units, hah.

What happened today?
Again, not much. I just felt like posting something. A bunch of little random things happened today.
1. Ryan Sheckler was on True Jackson VP. I have to say, he looked like a bald girl. It's just that his eyes are so freaking pretty and his eyelashes are so long. I am so jealous of them.
2. I found my Jack (Skellington) earrings. At first they seemed a bit heavy, but not anymore. :)
3. I heard my mother upstairs singing some Akon song. My ears bled.

Last thing. 'Kay so my sister said that one of my 'best friends' (quotations because we aren't that close anymore) asked her if I was 'stressed' because I was behind and didn't do work at school. Uhm, first of all, I'm not that stressed anymore. I've just taken to letting the wind take me where it wishes. Secondly, how the hell would you know whether or not I do work at school? I haven't gone to class with you in what seems like ages, and you don't seem to give a damn. So do us both a favour and stop giving me wierd looks in the halls and stop asking other people about me. Or, try being friends again. I've tried and I do not want to continue being the only one having any effort.

So that last part turned out longer than I thought. Whatever. I'm gonna go write my short story now. Abby suggested I named the other world "Adanac" because it's "Canada" backwards. I think that's a much better idea than "Equalia" or "Narnia", right, Joan? Also, I bet those names are copy-righted anyway, haha.

M'kay toodles, xox

Currently listening to: Time To Dance by Panic At The Disco
Namedrop of the day:
Aliaune Damala Bouga Time Puru Nacka Lu Lu Lu Badara Akon Thiam

Friday, May 1, 2009

Hit the club up,

And yo girl is on my list.

Urgh gotta rush this, Ghost Whisperer just started and I don't wanna be on the computer late.
M'kay so during phys ed, Dorothy was singing the old Pokemon theme song to encourage me, and it was funny. That was period 3. At lunch, a couple of us (Joan, Allan, and I) went outside, and my niner crush (lmfao so girly, I have like 5 'crushes', but pft whatever) was there, and yeeah that's it :) I didn't see the guy from the post below alllllll day! Saaaaad face. but after school I went to band to sign out my instrument and one of my other 'crushes' was there and he bumped into me and said sorry. Lmfao first word to me, but not first body contact ;) LMFAO nah, it's just that in the halls, it can get quite crowded. Crushes is always in quotations because it's more of a ou-he's-nice-to-look-at thing. That's all. I must now flee to view the latest episode of Ghost Whisperer.

I fare thee well, xox

Currently listening to: Jumping (Out the Window) REMIX by Ron Browz ft. Forever the Sickest Kids
Namedrop of the day: Brendon Boyd Urie

Thursday, April 30, 2009

Never did I ever love anyone other than you,

But secretly, I always want to see you cry so I push you until you do.

Not much happened today, the usual, EXCEPT for the afternoooooon. <33 M'kay so I spent all of periods 4 and 5 in tech to help set up for the art show, and HE was there the whole time <3 Omg, just be prepared for some major teenage girlishness. 'Kay so I was putting some tools away in the cabinet and HE was there with his friend, putting up a backdrop thing. So yeah, his friend was on the ladder and HE was like, "No, not yet, there's someone there," and his friend was all, "That's a nice way to refer to someone right there," and HE was like, "Well I don't know her name," Then HE turned to ME and said, "Sorry, I don't know your name, what is it?" OMG. I know he was just being a polite senior to a freshman, but I was like, melting inside. He is so cute. Oh frack, I sound so frickin' girly. BUT I WARNED YOU. But yeah, omfggggggg, I don't care if it was out of mere politeness, HE asked what MY name was! Oh jeeeez, I am still so bubbly :)
I remember near the beginning of the year, he came into tech and sat with me, my friend, and one of the teachers, and was talking, right? And the way he says zebra is cute. Most people I know pronounce it as zee-bra, but he says it like zeh-bra. I bet a lot of people do, but I don't careeeee. *Okay, Angeli. You need to calm down.* I should move onto a new topic or else I will type for ages about how he's in Gr 12 and he doesn't seem like he's carrying anything over to September so I'll never see him again. D:

Oddly enough, I don't feel like typing much more. After school, I went to the bridge again with Joan Reed-Lutz and
Allan and we took some pictures. They were okay, but the quality is always better with sunshine. Oh, and we met a Siberian Husky named Bam Bam! His owners were nice, they let random teenagers pet their doggy. :)

I'm gonna go.
Still bubbly. Haha ;)

Peacee! xox

Currently listening to: My Worst Nightmare by Forever the Sickest Kids
Namedrop of the day: Alice Cooper

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Some say love is not for sinners,

I believe that isn't true,
'Cause when I was done with sinning,
Love came down and showed me you.

And you told me how to get there,
So I tried to find a way,
Then I ran into your garden,
But I tripped on the gate.

What are you doing to me?
I'm so into you,
And the hardest part is knowing that I'll never follow through.
You're slowly killing me,
And I wish it wasn't true,
'Cause I'm so into you.

Like a ton of bricks,
It hit me,
And woke me from this dream,
No matter how hard I tried to wash my hands,
I could never get them clean.

Can you hear me?
'Cause I can't change what I'll always be.

I'm so into you.

Just be yourself

Any way that you want to!

Sooooo hey ;) I'm in English with my friends (including Joan Reed-Lutz, because I owed her one of those, hah) and my left hand is DYING. Darn Smokie had to jump on my laptop and make me drop the laptop and BAM, charger is broken :( So yeah now I have to hold it in place for it to charge. Oh the pain!

Next subject, Frrrrrench boys ;) After check-in, I went to my locker and Sarah was there and she saw my two (and only two!) posters of Jason Dolley<33 MY French boyfran is Gaspard Ulliel, mmm. Appropriately nicknamed Gasp-hard Drool-iel. He has that affect on girls, haha.

SO I did that ^ part of the post at schoolio's and now I'm at home. Hmm, okay well we ran. How did I do? Let's just say SOMEONE had to come 81st. Ahem. :( What else. Oh yeee, I showed Joan to go under the bridge and be scary trolls. Yes, yes we are very cool LOL. Ughhh, I don't feel like typing muchhhh. Okay, quick one sentences.

Went to the park. Got sand in between my toes. Laughed at little children. I was kidding. Bought popcorn. Sang songs very loud (Love Story & Right Round). Filmed a make-shift video of the Rice Crispies commercial. The end.

Peacee, xox

Currently listening to: Be Yourself by Morcheeba
Namedrop of the day:
Mathew Gray Gubler

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

"Hey Nate, yeah it's been a while,"

"Are you gonna sing?"

I'm on the telepono (go fobs!) with Joan. Okay well we just hung up because her phone was dying. Now my kuya is here and wants to use the computer for a resume.

Some lovely information you probably don't need to know.
My current stomach contents:
1 piece of spearmint flavoured Excel gum (yes Joan, my belly still hurts)
10 smores flavoured mini Ritz Bitz Sandwiches
2 water bottles worth of water

PEACE, xox

Currently listening to: At Least I'm Not As Sad (As I Used To Be) by fun.
Namedrop of the day: Hugh Jackman

Monday, April 27, 2009

JOAN JOAN READ THIS PLS.

Cause I dunno if I'll see you again today, but I went back to the Ex's application site thing, and I have to tell you something. Apparently, the people who run the Rides and Games are NOT paid/hired by the Ex, but by North American Midway Entertainment. That means that if we apply for the Ex, we won't get games? I have no idea, but yeeaah, tell me what you think about that. D:

Friday, April 24, 2009

Oh my gosh.

So I just came down to completely and totally spazz about two of my most favourite shows in the whole entire world, Ghost Whisperer and Flashpoint!!!!!! Oh my effin' gosh, I honestly do not like using more than one exlamation point, but really? Just LOVED the episodes today.

Let's start with Ghost Whisperer.
First off, without watching the episode & only reading the info, one of the guest stars was THAD LUCKINBILL. For those of you who are not familiar with the name, he's the extremely hot blonde JT in the soap opera, The Young & The Restless. Shut up. My grandmother likes to watch it, and I'm too polite to change the channel. :D Well, they also just had to put Victoria (Amelia Heinle) there, too. Jeez, they have to be made as a couple in two different shows? Haha. SECONDLY ABOUT THIS EPISODE, the ghost was portrayed by JOHNNY PACAR. Oh jeez, the countless times I've teased my friend about liking him.. But I honestly have to admit he looked pretty good-lookin' in this episode, ahahah. Oh and Eli is so cute for a guy in his late 30's, the way he acts is so adorkable. Hmmm what else, oh, how about MELINDA IS SERIOUSLY PREGGERS THIS TIME. Ahahah spoilers, biaatch. If you didn't watch it yet, too bad mofo's. By the way, it was JIM's baby BEFORE he died. Oh sheet. There are so many capitalized words here. Be prepared for more, because...

ONTO FLASHPOINT. M'kay, first of all, Ryan Kennedy. Enough said. Remember Travis from Whistler? Or Cosmic Kid from Smallville? Ryan. He is such a QT. Ha, I know I said I didn't watch much television, but those shows are from before, I promise :) But the episode wasn't great just because the storyline just tugged at my heartstrings. A successful man (Kennedy) seemingly has it all, a lovely and pregnant wife, a good job at the bank, nice house. However, his gambling older half brother (James Gilbert) calls on him yet again to bail him out of trouble. To make sure the money gets transferred to the big boss, they kidnap the pregnant wife and obv threaten to kill her. Anyhow, they go through trouble to try and get access codes for the million dollars and such, while the team goes to get the wife. Then Justin (Kennedy) finds out his brother knew the gang and frickin' told them about Justin and his bank job and that he always bails out his older bro, right? WHAT A JERK! It may not seem so dramatic, but my words cannot describe the show. It was lovely. Oh, and Donna got a job with Team 3, so Jules and Sam are staying. I still don't like Jules. :(

Father dearest now needs the computer, I best be off now.
Goodnight, xox

Currently listening to: You Might As Well Be In Space by The Years Gone By
Namedrop of the day: Elvis Costello

It's a death row pardon two minutes too late.

Why is everyone starting to listen to this song again out of nowhere? When I was SIX I was singing this song and knew every word. It's like Twilight, it came out like a bajillion years ago, but people only start knowing about it like, way after. It's not annoying that everyone likes it, it's the fact that two years ago, people were like "Ew, vampires, that's so stupid," and now they're Hale-ing themselves (pardon the pun) as MRS Cullen, or MRS Hale, or MRS Black, or shit. It's a little too ironic, dontcha think? Hah, see what I did there :p

I'm in InsPirE right now, avoiding the tumbling mess that is my life. I lost my earbuds AGAIN so right now I can only hear the screeches and vulgar belching (literally, I just heard one of the loudest burps in my life) of students in the halls. Save meeeee. I want to go home, I want to go outside, and now I sound like a whiny little child. Great. Maybe I feel like one. Maybe.

My stomach is grumbling terribly, I think someone else may have heard it. I missed breakfast as usual, and it is still only 2nd period. I wanna eat the pear in my bag, but I don't think I can in class. Even though this is hardly a classroom, more of a room, perse. Oh well, I'll wait. I should do work now.

Toodles, xox

Currently listening to: Ironic by Alanis Morissette
Namedrop of the day: Anakin Skywalker/Darth Vader

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Everyone pretends they're happy,

I just realized how utterly dull and horrendous my school life is. During hours, I honestly feel like a robot, going to the same places, avoiding the same places, feeling so effin' down. Then once I'm out in the lovely sunshine, it's all better. Then I go inside to do homework, and I'm yanked down to earth again. Like I swear, I daydreamed for almost all of period 5, just staring at the DIGITAL clock. How pathetic. But once I was at the park, I met up with some friends and we went under the bridge and stufff, it was nice. Then at home, I went to the neighbourhood park with my younger siblings and godsisters and a couple of our neighbours. Just chilling outside and talking. I really need more days like that. <3

PS Who the heck is he talking about in his pm? D:

Currently listening to: Lipstick Camera Canvas by The Cafe Kids
Namedrop of the day: Oprah Winfrey, ha.

Hey, hey there, we're almost home.

Lies, it's only third period. I absolutely cannot wait for school to be over. Not just this year, all of it. It's extremely stressful at the worst of times, and once you're behind, it's difficult to get back on track. Oh well, only a month more of work, then a month of exams. Oh wait, that's not good at all. Ugh, so much work to catch up on, yet so little time to do the catching up. Like everything, highschool seems to also take me a whole round to warm up. Next year, I swear I will not make the same typical mistakes. I swear, seriously. It's terrible, but we deal.

Next topic, hmm.. Ha, I -tweeted- at school, wooow. I'm in English, bored out of my mind, and procrastinating as usual.
Okay well it's just about lunch, I'm gonna go.

Peace, xox

Currently listening to: Almost Here by The Academy Is...
Namedrop of the day: Michael Guy Chislett

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

HAPPY EARTH DAY!

Or night?

THINK GREEN.
Did you? You better have. Or I'm gonna go down to your house and stab the door with a butter knife. :)
After school today, I saw a special Earth Day episode of THE NAKED BROTHERS BAND. Oh jeez, it was funny. The fact that I was watching, that is. Something about YTV and Disney shows seem to amuse me. Anyway, they were talking about Al Gore and Santa and polar bears and voodoo tea.
Surprisingly I don't feel like typing much, maybe because of the freshhh blueberry muffins Bee made, ahaha.

'Kay next thing. I have fallen victim to Twitter. Sure, I totally fail at it, but I made one even when I swore I wouldn't. Thanks, Ailyn, thanks. I really should stop making sites and stufff.

Third thing, probably the last thing, I've just turned into a fan girl again when I was watching the music video for Tonight, I Love You by The Latency... again. Man, and I was doing so well being normal!

Ah, so I spent like, 15 minutes trying to embed the video here, but I honestly can't figure it out (and no, there's obv no given embedding code) and I need to work. So here's the link:

http://watch.muchmusic.com/muchmore/muchmore-music-videos/fresh-on-muchmore/clip156854#clip156854

Apparently my dinner is getting cold, so I should go.
Later, xox

Currently listening to: Big Yellow Taxi by Counting Crows
Namedrop of the day: Al Gore

**EDIT**
Instead of posting a new entry, I thought I might as well continue with this one. My brother got some recording program for the computer, and it is honestly so much fun. I'm tracking vocals for this song my friend and I wrote, but sadly that's it, just vocals. Oh well, maybe in a few years we'll be pro enough at our instruments to add more :)

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Lemonade, v1 & v2

So I found my old notebook in my locker and thought I'd put my friend poems up. They're basically the same poem, but in different formats? They are pretty cheesy, but it was an assignment last year. Well, enjoy.

V1
E double M A.
Well, what can I say?

She's a true friend,
One I'll have 'til the end.

She's always there for me,
We're practically like family.

When life gives me lemons,
She makes lemonade.

She always tries to understand,
She's always there with a helping hand.

Helping me up when I fall,
She's my best friend through it all.

When I feel blue, red, black, or don't even know,
Where can I go?

To Emma,
Who's always waiting with two glasses of life's lemonade.


V2
E M M A .
Who is she?
She is my f r i e n d .
my m u c h a c h a .
If I were Bella,
She'd be Alice.
She can listen,
and make me laugh.
When I feel down and blue,
She can cheer me up.
She's a l w a y s t h e r e .
When life gives me lemons,
She makes
L e m o n a d e .

Currently listening to: Lemonade by Passion
Namedrop of the day: Nolan Gerard Funk

Tu es ma héroïne.

Yeah, nothing happened today exciting enough to blog about really. Uhm, there's the girly shit like, "Ohmigoshohmigoshohmigosh he's sitting in front of me!" but that's wierd.

So what will I talk about? Nothing I guess. I just wanted to post at least something.
I might post something else later. Right now I should go.

OH, but Underoath's new music video! <33
Underoath - Too Bright To See Too Loud To Hear


Peacee, xox

Monday, April 20, 2009

Kill the conversation and wrap it up in a lie.

Oh. Em. Gee.
RAIN!
I honestly love the rain. Aha, how typical, talking about the weather. And today after school, holy crap. I was practically in heaven. Well, as everything, rainy weather does have an underside as sore as the soles of your feet after running 15 miles in flipflops. Oh yeah, I went there. Ha, anyway. There are just so many worms! Don't get me wrong, I'm not the "Eww! A worm!" type of person, but it was like "Whoa, why is there a thick piece of pink yarn on the sidewalk? .... IT'S A WORM" I just don't want worm guts on my shoes, and I don't want all those worms dead. Watch, by the time the rain stops, there will be a million worm souls gone to heaven. I do not want to walk in a bunch of dried up worms tomorrow :( RIP Wormie. That's the name of my first pet. Omigoshnowai, he was a worm. Ha, I was a stupid kindergartener.

Hmm, what else to talk about.. Today I went to school, oh wow? I had a 'super TA interview'. So basically, I plan to qualify for Carry-Over Status for English and French, but finish them in summer school. Oh shit. Those two words (summer school, not 'oh shit' ahah). Everytime I hear them, it's like someone driving a stake through my heart. The fading sound of its pounding, like a resilient reminder of my academic career, or rather, lack thereof.

GOODNIGHT. Wasted more time on other shit, ha.

Bye, xox

Sunday, April 19, 2009

This clock never seemed so alive.

Oh, hey :)
Today, I was in such a cleaning mood. My whole family was. I love spring cleaning, ahah. You can actually see the floor in my room now! Hallelujahh! Listening to some The Maine. Daaamn, John Ohh and his sexy voice ;) I wish I could see them in two Tuesdays from now, soo sad.

'Kay I started this blog before dinner, left, and now I'm back. So my train of thought is completely gone. But now there's a new one. I am still wholly and utterly convinced that my family, mostly my mother, is trying to rid me of my vegetarianism and sneaking meat into my meals. I found a piece of meat in my dinner just now. It's almost been a year! Do they not respect my choices?? Seriously, I'm old enough to decide most of what I do in life! Anyway, I made some excuse to leave the table earlier and ta da, here I am.

Hmmm, what else to talk about.. Oh, I have a 'super TA interview' tomorrow. Grrreat. Reality will slap me in the face with a giant fish. So scared. I am like, intolerant to failure. It terrifies me along with disappointment and shame of me. Ughh.

Okay, last subject change before I go. My friend and I were talking, and she brought up webs, so I think I'm going to actually use my own website now! Shockerr. Man, I make waaay too many accounts for different sites :/ So yeah, if you wanna check it out, it's http://www.beautiful-insanityy.webs.com.

I should go, goodnight! xox

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Daamn, he's BLAISE-in' hot ;)

Psst, This Providence is bomb, go check 'em out! & I don't know why the time is wrong o n here. :]

So right now I really wish I lived in the US. My boredom and procrastination of homework made me go on Myspace, which led to browsing, and the end result? Looking at loads of merch I can never have :( If only my parents weren't so paranoid about online shopping, I swear, my whole wardrobe would be from the 'Net. Santa, if you happen to read this, I want the yellow The Maine hoodie and the moustache Hope For A.M. tee, please :D

What else.. Oh yeah! Last night, holyy shiit(ake)! Just so you know, Ghost Whisperer is probably in my top 3 favourite shows. Anyway, if you just so happened to watch it yesterday, you would have seen the ending, and if you saw the ending, you would know that Melinda might be preggers! I cannot wait until next Friday. FYI, I don't watch much television except Ghost Whisperer and criminal shows (CSI, Criminal Minds, Law & Order, etc).

Back to the present, my fam went bowling today and I realized I can totally bowl without the side-boards. Awwhh yeah! ... It just takes me a whole game to get warmed up first. Seriously man, I got like less than 50 on the first game, losing to a couple of 9 year olds. Embarassing much?? Oh well, they cheered for me anyway. OH OH OH. I also played that Stackers game, and got TWO prizes when I won once, a funky watch and a bracelet. So far, my wrists are not itching, so I do not question their quality, haha. :)

Anyway, that was long. I should go.
Later, xox

Friday, April 17, 2009

My knuckles are bloody from beating someone up.

Pfft. As if. Nahh, just from climbing a tree and fixing a bike. Man, saying that makes me feel so tough-ish. The weather was just amazing, I loved it :D My siblings, God-siblings, and I went outside for about 3 hours and finally connected with our neighbours! Hallelujahh, time not spent stuck in the tiny hellhole I call home. Just kidding, my home isn't that bad, I swear.

Guhhh, I just had this posting thing open for like, half an hour and didn't type anything. Yaaaay ADD. Anyway, THIS http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Mh0rBN_oIs&feature=channel is the frickin bomb, man. Oh my gosh, I love this band so much, I can't wait for the video <33 Not only is their music amazing, they're pretty adorable, too. Ha, I sound like a fangirl. Maybe I am one? Whatever, as long as their music is good, it's all good.

I have to go. I used my time on Facebook and Youtube so I can't write as much as I had hoped; tomorrow I guess.

Peace, xox.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

La Dee Daawh



I absolutely cannot wait for this movie. I don't know what else to say. I would elaborate more on this subject, but I am beat and still need to do homework. Oh the joy of being a student. Maybe I'll update this post later.
...
Ehh, or not. That's laziness for you. I probably will after I've seen it which I most definitely will.

On a lower note, my father forgot to pick me up, AGAIN. So I was waiting outside the library for almost half an hour. It wouldn't be a big deal if he normally was forgetful, but he's not. And it's always me that's forgotten. Does that say something to you? Then my brother has to come out of nowhere and be all in my face about how I'm having attitude problems. What a hypocrite.


However...!
TAI TV in Chile was probably the only high point in my day, it was much needed. After a few months without my weekly TAI TV dosage, I've become less of a fangirl, but now.. I fear that I might return to that pathetic state. Oh well, it was fun, haha.


Lastly, on a very girly note..
He sat beside/behind me in English during period 5! Doesn't make sense? I was facing the North and he was facing East, I believe. *sighh* He's one of the guys I haven't told my friends I was crushing on. And no, I do not crush on a million guys at once. I guess crushing isn't the right word. Hmm.. Maybe crushing in the sense that I think they're cute to look at? That's completely different from actually crushing I guess. Oh well.

Anywho, I should finish that project and sleep. Thank goodness for the faculty meeting tomorrow, I can probably get in a whole extra hour of sleep! <3

Saturday, April 11, 2009

michael.

I love playing this song on guitar, but it's such a pain to redevelop calluses (literally, ha).

Anyway, school now sucks. I used to love going to school, but now I very nearly hate it. Oh, procrastination & distraction. My two enemies whom I keep oh-so-close. Ugh.

Later, xox