Oh how scared the strong are

Their pride and ignorance being a mere façade.

I'm scared. I just can't seem to meet anyone's expectations. I hear it over and over again, "Don't listen to other people, just be your best." Thank you for trying to help, really. But in all honesty, who lives like that. Everyone is always concerned with how others think of them, whether it's consciously or not. And the few people who do seem to live without that care, how do they do it? I've tried not giving a thought to what other people think, but it's impossible. My standards are the standards other people set for me. I have that fear of failure. I can't remember what it's called, let me Google it, haha. Hmm, well I'm far too lazy to double-check, but the first thing I got was "atychiphobia". Good enough. Ugh, it's just so.. pesky.

It's almost summer, time to be happy. Mr Guy Ripley put up the clarinet and harpsichord arrangement for About A Girl by The Academy Is... and it's actually really good. It's soothing, but not too boring? I like it. Listen to it at http://drop.io/guyripley. I should go, I've been lacking sleep so much lately, it's terrible. Oh, and Twitter is proving to be more addicting than I thought. Yes, I gave in to this trend. I just wonder how long it'll take to wear off.

Peacee, xox

Currently listening to: About A Girl (Clarinet & Harpsichord Version) by The Academy Is.../Guy Ripley
Namedrop of the day: Ryland Blackinton of Cobra Starship :)

Hey, hey there, we're almost home.

Lies, it's only third period. I absolutely cannot wait for school to be over. Not just this year, all of it. It's extremely stressful at the worst of times, and once you're behind, it's difficult to get back on track. Oh well, only a month more of work, then a month of exams. Oh wait, that's not good at all. Ugh, so much work to catch up on, yet so little time to do the catching up. Like everything, highschool seems to also take me a whole round to warm up. Next year, I swear I will not make the same typical mistakes. I swear, seriously. It's terrible, but we deal.

Next topic, hmm.. Ha, I -tweeted- at school, wooow. I'm in English, bored out of my mind, and procrastinating as usual.
Okay well it's just about lunch, I'm gonna go.

Peace, xox

Currently listening to: Almost Here by The Academy Is...
Namedrop of the day: Michael Guy Chislett

La Dee Daawh

I absolutely cannot wait for this movie. I don't know what else to say. I would elaborate more on this subject, but I am beat and still need to do homework. Oh the joy of being a student. Maybe I'll update this post later.
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Ehh, or not. That's laziness for you. I probably will after I've seen it which I most definitely will.

On a lower note, my father forgot to pick me up, AGAIN. So I was waiting outside the library for almost half an hour. It wouldn't be a big deal if he normally was forgetful, but he's not. And it's always me that's forgotten. Does that say something to you? Then my brother has to come out of nowhere and be all in my face about how I'm having attitude problems. What a hypocrite.


However...!
TAI TV in Chile was probably the only high point in my day, it was much needed. After a few months without my weekly TAI TV dosage, I've become less of a fangirl, but now.. I fear that I might return to that pathetic state. Oh well, it was fun, haha.


Lastly, on a very girly note..
He sat beside/behind me in English during period 5! Doesn't make sense? I was facing the North and he was facing East, I believe. *sighh* He's one of the guys I haven't told my friends I was crushing on. And no, I do not crush on a million guys at once. I guess crushing isn't the right word. Hmm.. Maybe crushing in the sense that I think they're cute to look at? That's completely different from actually crushing I guess. Oh well.

Anywho, I should finish that project and sleep. Thank goodness for the faculty meeting tomorrow, I can probably get in a whole extra hour of sleep! <3