Never did I ever love anyone other than you,

But secretly, I always want to see you cry so I push you until you do.

Not much happened today, the usual, EXCEPT for the afternoooooon. <33 M'kay so I spent all of periods 4 and 5 in tech to help set up for the art show, and HE was there the whole time <3 Omg, just be prepared for some major teenage girlishness. 'Kay so I was putting some tools away in the cabinet and HE was there with his friend, putting up a backdrop thing. So yeah, his friend was on the ladder and HE was like, "No, not yet, there's someone there," and his friend was all, "That's a nice way to refer to someone right there," and HE was like, "Well I don't know her name," Then HE turned to ME and said, "Sorry, I don't know your name, what is it?" OMG. I know he was just being a polite senior to a freshman, but I was like, melting inside. He is so cute. Oh frack, I sound so frickin' girly. BUT I WARNED YOU. But yeah, omfggggggg, I don't care if it was out of mere politeness, HE asked what MY name was! Oh jeeeez, I am still so bubbly :)
I remember near the beginning of the year, he came into tech and sat with me, my friend, and one of the teachers, and was talking, right? And the way he says zebra is cute. Most people I know pronounce it as zee-bra, but he says it like zeh-bra. I bet a lot of people do, but I don't careeeee. *Okay, Angeli. You need to calm down.* I should move onto a new topic or else I will type for ages about how he's in Gr 12 and he doesn't seem like he's carrying anything over to September so I'll never see him again. D:

Oddly enough, I don't feel like typing much more. After school, I went to the bridge again with Joan Reed-Lutz and Allan and we took some pictures. They were okay, but the quality is always better with sunshine. Oh, and we met a Siberian Husky named Bam Bam! His owners were nice, they let random teenagers pet their doggy. :)

I'm gonna go. Still bubbly. Haha ;)

Peacee! xox

Currently listening to: My Worst Nightmare by Forever the Sickest Kids
Namedrop of the day: Alice Cooper

Some say love is not for sinners,

I believe that isn't true,
'Cause when I was done with sinning,
Love came down and showed me you.

And you told me how to get there,
So I tried to find a way,
Then I ran into your garden,
But I tripped on the gate.

What are you doing to me?
I'm so into you,
And the hardest part is knowing that I'll never follow through.
You're slowly killing me,
And I wish it wasn't true,
'Cause I'm so into you.

Like a ton of bricks,
It hit me,
And woke me from this dream,
No matter how hard I tried to wash my hands,
I could never get them clean.

Can you hear me?
'Cause I can't change what I'll always be.

I'm so into you.

Just be yourself

Any way that you want to!

Sooooo hey ;) I'm in English with my friends (including Joan Reed-Lutz, because I owed her one of those, hah) and my left hand is DYING. Darn Smokie had to jump on my laptop and make me drop the laptop and BAM, charger is broken :( So yeah now I have to hold it in place for it to charge. Oh the pain!

Next subject, Frrrrrench boys ;) After check-in, I went to my locker and Sarah was there and she saw my two (and only two!) posters of Jason Dolley<33 MY French boyfran is Gaspard Ulliel, mmm. Appropriately nicknamed Gasp-hard Drool-iel. He has that affect on girls, haha.

SO I did that ^ part of the post at schoolio's and now I'm at home. Hmm, okay well we ran. How did I do? Let's just say SOMEONE had to come 81st. Ahem. :( What else. Oh yeee, I showed Joan to go under the bridge and be scary trolls. Yes, yes we are very cool LOL. Ughhh, I don't feel like typing muchhhh. Okay, quick one sentences.

Went to the park. Got sand in between my toes. Laughed at little children. I was kidding. Bought popcorn. Sang songs very loud (Love Story & Right Round). Filmed a make-shift video of the Rice Crispies commercial. The end.

Peacee, xox

Currently listening to: Be Yourself by Morcheeba
Namedrop of the day: Mathew Gray Gubler

"Hey Nate, yeah it's been a while,"

"Are you gonna sing?"

I'm on the telepono (go fobs!) with Joan. Okay well we just hung up because her phone was dying. Now my kuya is here and wants to use the computer for a resume.

Some lovely information you probably don't need to know.
My current stomach contents:
1 piece of spearmint flavoured Excel gum (yes Joan, my belly still hurts)
10 smores flavoured mini Ritz Bitz Sandwiches
2 water bottles worth of water

PEACE, xox

Currently listening to: At Least I'm Not As Sad (As I Used To Be) by fun.
Namedrop of the day: Hugh Jackman

JOAN JOAN READ THIS PLS.

Cause I dunno if I'll see you again today, but I went back to the Ex's application site thing, and I have to tell you something. Apparently, the people who run the Rides and Games are NOT paid/hired by the Ex, but by North American Midway Entertainment. That means that if we apply for the Ex, we won't get games? I have no idea, but yeeaah, tell me what you think about that. D:

Oh my gosh.

So I just came down to completely and totally spazz about two of my most favourite shows in the whole entire world, Ghost Whisperer and Flashpoint!!!!!! Oh my effin' gosh, I honestly do not like using more than one exlamation point, but really? Just LOVED the episodes today.

Let's start with Ghost Whisperer.
First off, without watching the episode & only reading the info, one of the guest stars was THAD LUCKINBILL. For those of you who are not familiar with the name, he's the extremely hot blonde JT in the soap opera, The Young & The Restless. Shut up. My grandmother likes to watch it, and I'm too polite to change the channel. :D Well, they also just had to put Victoria (Amelia Heinle) there, too. Jeez, they have to be made as a couple in two different shows? Haha. SECONDLY ABOUT THIS EPISODE, the ghost was portrayed by JOHNNY PACAR. Oh jeez, the countless times I've teased my friend about liking him.. But I honestly have to admit he looked pretty good-lookin' in this episode, ahahah. Oh and Eli is so cute for a guy in his late 30's, the way he acts is so adorkable. Hmmm what else, oh, how about MELINDA IS SERIOUSLY PREGGERS THIS TIME. Ahahah spoilers, biaatch. If you didn't watch it yet, too bad mofo's. By the way, it was JIM's baby BEFORE he died. Oh sheet. There are so many capitalized words here. Be prepared for more, because...

ONTO FLASHPOINT. M'kay, first of all, Ryan Kennedy. Enough said. Remember Travis from Whistler? Or Cosmic Kid from Smallville? Ryan. He is such a QT. Ha, I know I said I didn't watch much television, but those shows are from before, I promise :) But the episode wasn't great just because the storyline just tugged at my heartstrings. A successful man (Kennedy) seemingly has it all, a lovely and pregnant wife, a good job at the bank, nice house. However, his gambling older half brother (James Gilbert) calls on him yet again to bail him out of trouble. To make sure the money gets transferred to the big boss, they kidnap the pregnant wife and obv threaten to kill her. Anyhow, they go through trouble to try and get access codes for the million dollars and such, while the team goes to get the wife. Then Justin (Kennedy) finds out his brother knew the gang and frickin' told them about Justin and his bank job and that he always bails out his older bro, right? WHAT A JERK! It may not seem so dramatic, but my words cannot describe the show. It was lovely. Oh, and Donna got a job with Team 3, so Jules and Sam are staying. I still don't like Jules. :(

Father dearest now needs the computer, I best be off now.
Goodnight, xox

Currently listening to: You Might As Well Be In Space by The Years Gone By
Namedrop of the day: Elvis Costello

It's a death row pardon two minutes too late.

Why is everyone starting to listen to this song again out of nowhere? When I was SIX I was singing this song and knew every word. It's like Twilight, it came out like a bajillion years ago, but people only start knowing about it like, way after. It's not annoying that everyone likes it, it's the fact that two years ago, people were like "Ew, vampires, that's so stupid," and now they're Hale-ing themselves (pardon the pun) as MRS Cullen, or MRS Hale, or MRS Black, or shit. It's a little too ironic, dontcha think? Hah, see what I did there :p

I'm in InsPirE right now, avoiding the tumbling mess that is my life. I lost my earbuds AGAIN so right now I can only hear the screeches and vulgar belching (literally, I just heard one of the loudest burps in my life) of students in the halls. Save meeeee. I want to go home, I want to go outside, and now I sound like a whiny little child. Great. Maybe I feel like one. Maybe.

My stomach is grumbling terribly, I think someone else may have heard it. I missed breakfast as usual, and it is still only 2nd period. I wanna eat the pear in my bag, but I don't think I can in class. Even though this is hardly a classroom, more of a room, perse. Oh well, I'll wait. I should do work now.

Toodles, xox

Currently listening to: Ironic by Alanis Morissette
Namedrop of the day: Anakin Skywalker/Darth Vader

Everyone pretends they're happy,

I just realized how utterly dull and horrendous my school life is. During hours, I honestly feel like a robot, going to the same places, avoiding the same places, feeling so effin' down. Then once I'm out in the lovely sunshine, it's all better. Then I go inside to do homework, and I'm yanked down to earth again. Like I swear, I daydreamed for almost all of period 5, just staring at the DIGITAL clock. How pathetic. But once I was at the park, I met up with some friends and we went under the bridge and stufff, it was nice. Then at home, I went to the neighbourhood park with my younger siblings and godsisters and a couple of our neighbours. Just chilling outside and talking. I really need more days like that. <3

PS Who the heck is he talking about in his pm? D:

Currently listening to: Lipstick Camera Canvas by The Cafe Kids
Namedrop of the day: Oprah Winfrey, ha.

Hey, hey there, we're almost home.

Lies, it's only third period. I absolutely cannot wait for school to be over. Not just this year, all of it. It's extremely stressful at the worst of times, and once you're behind, it's difficult to get back on track. Oh well, only a month more of work, then a month of exams. Oh wait, that's not good at all. Ugh, so much work to catch up on, yet so little time to do the catching up. Like everything, highschool seems to also take me a whole round to warm up. Next year, I swear I will not make the same typical mistakes. I swear, seriously. It's terrible, but we deal.

Next topic, hmm.. Ha, I -tweeted- at school, wooow. I'm in English, bored out of my mind, and procrastinating as usual.
Okay well it's just about lunch, I'm gonna go.

Peace, xox

Currently listening to: Almost Here by The Academy Is...
Namedrop of the day: Michael Guy Chislett

HAPPY EARTH DAY!

Or night?

THINK GREEN.
Did you? You better have. Or I'm gonna go down to your house and stab the door with a butter knife. :)
After school today, I saw a special Earth Day episode of THE NAKED BROTHERS BAND. Oh jeez, it was funny. The fact that I was watching, that is. Something about YTV and Disney shows seem to amuse me. Anyway, they were talking about Al Gore and Santa and polar bears and voodoo tea.
Surprisingly I don't feel like typing much, maybe because of the freshhh blueberry muffins Bee made, ahaha.

'Kay next thing. I have fallen victim to Twitter. Sure, I totally fail at it, but I made one even when I swore I wouldn't. Thanks, Ailyn, thanks. I really should stop making sites and stufff.

Third thing, probably the last thing, I've just turned into a fan girl again when I was watching the music video for Tonight, I Love You by The Latency... again. Man, and I was doing so well being normal!

Ah, so I spent like, 15 minutes trying to embed the video here, but I honestly can't figure it out (and no, there's obv no given embedding code) and I need to work. So here's the link:

http://watch.muchmusic.com/muchmore/muchmore-music-videos/fresh-on-muchmore/clip156854#clip156854

Apparently my dinner is getting cold, so I should go.
Later, xox

Currently listening to: Big Yellow Taxi by Counting Crows
Namedrop of the day: Al Gore

**EDIT**
Instead of posting a new entry, I thought I might as well continue with this one. My brother got some recording program for the computer, and it is honestly so much fun. I'm tracking vocals for this song my friend and I wrote, but sadly that's it, just vocals. Oh well, maybe in a few years we'll be pro enough at our instruments to add more :)

Lemonade, v1 & v2

So I found my old notebook in my locker and thought I'd put my friend poems up. They're basically the same poem, but in different formats? They are pretty cheesy, but it was an assignment last year. Well, enjoy.

V1
E double M A.
Well, what can I say?

She's a true friend,
One I'll have 'til the end.

She's always there for me,
We're practically like family.

When life gives me lemons,
She makes lemonade.

She always tries to understand,
She's always there with a helping hand.

Helping me up when I fall,
She's my best friend through it all.

When I feel blue, red, black, or don't even know,
Where can I go?

To Emma,
Who's always waiting with two glasses of life's lemonade.

V2

E M M A .
Who is she?
She is my f r i e n d .
my m u c h a c h a .
If I were Bella,
She'd be Alice.
She can listen,
and make me laugh.
When I feel down and blue,
She can cheer me up.
She's a l w a y s t h e r e .
When life gives me lemons,
She makes
L e m o n a d e .

Currently listening to: Lemonade by Passion
Namedrop of the day: Nolan Gerard Funk

Tu es ma héroïne.

Yeah, nothing happened today exciting enough to blog about really. Uhm, there's the girly shit like, "Ohmigoshohmigoshohmigosh he's sitting in front of me!" but that's wierd.

So what will I talk about? Nothing I guess. I just wanted to post at least something.
I might post something else later. Right now I should go.

OH, but Underoath's new music video! <33
Underoath - Too Bright To See Too Loud To Hear


Peacee, xox

Kill the conversation and wrap it up in a lie.

Oh. Em. Gee.
RAIN!
I honestly love the rain. Aha, how typical, talking about the weather. And today after school, holy crap. I was practically in heaven. Well, as everything, rainy weather does have an underside as sore as the soles of your feet after running 15 miles in flipflops. Oh yeah, I went there. Ha, anyway. There are just so many worms! Don't get me wrong, I'm not the "Eww! A worm!" type of person, but it was like "Whoa, why is there a thick piece of pink yarn on the sidewalk? .... IT'S A WORM" I just don't want worm guts on my shoes, and I don't want all those worms dead. Watch, by the time the rain stops, there will be a million worm souls gone to heaven. I do not want to walk in a bunch of dried up worms tomorrow :( RIP Wormie. That's the name of my first pet. Omigoshnowai, he was a worm. Ha, I was a stupid kindergartener.

Hmm, what else to talk about.. Today I went to school, oh wow? I had a 'super TA interview'. So basically, I plan to qualify for Carry-Over Status for English and French, but finish them in summer school. Oh shit. Those two words (summer school, not 'oh shit' ahah). Everytime I hear them, it's like someone driving a stake through my heart. The fading sound of its pounding, like a resilient reminder of my academic career, or rather, lack thereof.

GOODNIGHT. Wasted more time on other shit, ha.

Bye, xox

This clock never seemed so alive.

Oh, hey :)
Today, I was in such a cleaning mood. My whole family was. I love spring cleaning, ahah. You can actually see the floor in my room now! Hallelujahh! Listening to some The Maine. Daaamn, John Ohh and his sexy voice ;) I wish I could see them in two Tuesdays from now, soo sad.

'Kay I started this blog before dinner, left, and now I'm back. So my train of thought is completely gone. But now there's a new one. I am still wholly and utterly convinced that my family, mostly my mother, is trying to rid me of my vegetarianism and sneaking meat into my meals. I found a piece of meat in my dinner just now. It's almost been a year! Do they not respect my choices?? Seriously, I'm old enough to decide most of what I do in life! Anyway, I made some excuse to leave the table earlier and ta da, here I am.

Hmmm, what else to talk about.. Oh, I have a 'super TA interview' tomorrow. Grrreat. Reality will slap me in the face with a giant fish. So scared. I am like, intolerant to failure. It terrifies me along with disappointment and shame of me. Ughh.

Okay, last subject change before I go. My friend and I were talking, and she brought up webs, so I think I'm going to actually use my own website now! Shockerr. Man, I make waaay too many accounts for different sites :/ So yeah, if you wanna check it out, it's http://www.beautiful-insanityy.webs.com.

I should go, goodnight! xox

Daamn, he's BLAISE-in' hot ;)

Psst, This Providence is bomb, go check 'em out! & I don't know why the time is wrong o n here. :]

So right now I really wish I lived in the US. My boredom and procrastination of homework made me go on Myspace, which led to browsing, and the end result? Looking at loads of merch I can never have :( If only my parents weren't so paranoid about online shopping, I swear, my whole wardrobe would be from the 'Net. Santa, if you happen to read this, I want the yellow The Maine hoodie and the moustache Hope For A.M. tee, please :D

What else.. Oh yeah! Last night, holyy shiit(ake)! Just so you know, Ghost Whisperer is probably in my top 3 favourite shows. Anyway, if you just so happened to watch it yesterday, you would have seen the ending, and if you saw the ending, you would know that Melinda might be preggers! I cannot wait until next Friday. FYI, I don't watch much television except Ghost Whisperer and criminal shows (CSI, Criminal Minds, Law & Order, etc).

Back to the present, my fam went bowling today and I realized I can totally bowl without the side-boards. Awwhh yeah! ... It just takes me a whole game to get warmed up first. Seriously man, I got like less than 50 on the first game, losing to a couple of 9 year olds. Embarassing much?? Oh well, they cheered for me anyway. OH OH OH. I also played that Stackers game, and got TWO prizes when I won once, a funky watch and a bracelet. So far, my wrists are not itching, so I do not question their quality, haha. :)

Anyway, that was long. I should go.
Later, xox

My knuckles are bloody from beating someone up.

Pfft. As if. Nahh, just from climbing a tree and fixing a bike. Man, saying that makes me feel so tough-ish. The weather was just amazing, I loved it :D My siblings, God-siblings, and I went outside for about 3 hours and finally connected with our neighbours! Hallelujahh, time not spent stuck in the tiny hellhole I call home. Just kidding, my home isn't that bad, I swear.

Guhhh, I just had this posting thing open for like, half an hour and didn't type anything. Yaaaay ADD. Anyway, THIS http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Mh0rBN_oIs&feature=channel is the frickin bomb, man. Oh my gosh, I love this band so much, I can't wait for the video <33 Not only is their music amazing, they're pretty adorable, too. Ha, I sound like a fangirl. Maybe I am one? Whatever, as long as their music is good, it's all good.

I have to go. I used my time on Facebook and Youtube so I can't write as much as I had hoped; tomorrow I guess.

Peace, xox.

La Dee Daawh

I absolutely cannot wait for this movie. I don't know what else to say. I would elaborate more on this subject, but I am beat and still need to do homework. Oh the joy of being a student. Maybe I'll update this post later.
...
Ehh, or not. That's laziness for you. I probably will after I've seen it which I most definitely will.

On a lower note, my father forgot to pick me up, AGAIN. So I was waiting outside the library for almost half an hour. It wouldn't be a big deal if he normally was forgetful, but he's not. And it's always me that's forgotten. Does that say something to you? Then my brother has to come out of nowhere and be all in my face about how I'm having attitude problems. What a hypocrite.


However...!
TAI TV in Chile was probably the only high point in my day, it was much needed. After a few months without my weekly TAI TV dosage, I've become less of a fangirl, but now.. I fear that I might return to that pathetic state. Oh well, it was fun, haha.


Lastly, on a very girly note..
He sat beside/behind me in English during period 5! Doesn't make sense? I was facing the North and he was facing East, I believe. *sighh* He's one of the guys I haven't told my friends I was crushing on. And no, I do not crush on a million guys at once. I guess crushing isn't the right word. Hmm.. Maybe crushing in the sense that I think they're cute to look at? That's completely different from actually crushing I guess. Oh well.

Anywho, I should finish that project and sleep. Thank goodness for the faculty meeting tomorrow, I can probably get in a whole extra hour of sleep! <3

michael.

I love playing this song on guitar, but it's such a pain to redevelop calluses (literally, ha).

Anyway, school now sucks. I used to love going to school, but now I very nearly hate it. Oh, procrastination & distraction. My two enemies whom I keep oh-so-close. Ugh.

Later, xox